Teacoffeebooksteacoffeebooksbeer. This has been my life for the past week & a half. No matter what happens today, pass or fail, I'm just going to relish in the fact that, at least for now, I am done with you.
Seven more days till I take the NCLEX. Been busy reading & whatnot, but sadly still not at the pace I'd like & SHOULD be going at. Also, an eventful week needs updating on, which I simply can't afford the time to carry out at the moment. Promise to work on it whenever I can, or as soon as I regain the mental energy after next Tuesday. Bust just incase I forget, the following lists the topics to be covered:
- Friday--- letter to Joe - Saturday--- hiking with Staci, Oscar, & Luis - Sunday--- meeting with Eunice - Today [Tuesday]--- lunch with Leo
- in general--- life lessons from 2011, hopes, dreams & ambitions for 2012
I REALLY hope I don't end up having to reschedule my test date due to unpreparedness. Wish me luck, & godspeed.
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"God helps those who help themselves" - Benjamin Franklin
I FINALY found Chelsea today. I also found she now has a 5-month-old baby girl. I told Marie about the encounter, & it turns out there are still people today who hold the same stigma to "getting knocked up" at 23 with being a virgin at 23.
Another less silly thing is that I found Chelsea at none other than her house. It turns out she doesn't live there anymore, but was just visiting her family with her boyfriend & daughter. Talk about a chance encounter. Isn't it amazing how people get so reliant & stuck on their phones?? Whatever happened to writing letters & pounding the pavement for a good ol' fashioned search??
Speaking of writing, I composed an apology letter to Joe today. For some reason I was nervous & found my hand shaking as I wrote the final draft [yes, I compose multiple drafts before settling on the final], that I decided to put off personally delivering it till tomorrow. After months of no communication, he Facebook messaged some well-wishes on Christmas. Sure, I could've just messaged back, & sure, I could just send a hand-written letter in the mail with the regular post, but I'm trying to get back to "old school" forms of communication, which I'm finding is much more effective & heartfelt. Also, I don't know his home address, hence the personal trek.
Despite failing to deliver my letter today as planned, I am happy at the day's accomplishments of finally reuniting with an old friend, & finally finding closure with another I've wronged & been wronged by. Four days into the new year, & I feel like I'm making progress as a whole already. Now if I can just figure out where I am with the Eunice situation.
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PS My ATT for the NCLEX finally arrived on Thursday, just before the New Year. I've set a date for a Tuesday this month, relighting the fire under my rear to study full-throttle.
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I've got my foot in the door, now it's up to me what happens next.
From the bottom of my little, wannabe-nurse heart, I MOTHERFUCKING HATE YOU.
Sincerely, Jamar
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Only a few more days left of 2011, and I still haven't been able to take my NCLEX. At this point, I really am starting to question this path toward nursing. Fingerprint scan rejected, steadilly decreasing drive to keep studying, overstretched wait for the ATT [authorization to test]. What's up, universe??
After we found out Marie had passed hers & Mom had come down from her mega-euphoric state, she turned her focus onto me & increased her showering of "when are you testing?", "have you been studying?", "do you think you're ready?" & so forth. My answer was no, but after seeing her go through the roof, I must have panicked & blurted out I was testing at the end of the month. And the lies just snowballed from there.
I've been checking my inbox like a fat kid searching for a golden ticket [Willy Wonka], but I've been waiting in vain. I've talked to so many instructors & representatives & basically went on a wild goose chase when I finally got a straight answer regarding my ATT. All hopes of testing by my alleged test date out the window, I finally broke the news to my parents. It didn't go down well at all, but then I can't see how that could've gone therwise.
A pair of raccoon eyes & sore knuckles later [mine], I stumbled upon the above photo & found my second wind at going over more questions. Just because something's out of your hands is no excuse to lean back & sit on your hands. I WILL BEAT THIS!!
